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the world is racing around me, too fast for me to see. i feel like a snail surrounded by dragonflies. every step takes an infinite amount of energy. every thought requires all the concentration i can muster.
i overhear my roommate on her cell phone. "Hi! It's so good to hear from you! What have you been up to these days?" ... "Really? When did that happen?" ... "Wow, I've always wanted to..." ... "Hey, what are you guys up to tonight?" ... "I've been wanting to see that." ... "Are you sure it's okay? I don't want to get in the middle of you two or anything." ... "Great, 7? I'll see you then!" i need to make a phone call too. about the weekend, i think, or was it last weekend? i need to find the phone. phone. where did i put it? the bedroom? the counter in the kitchen? i hope it's not in my bed. need to stand to get the phone. need to sit to stand. sitting. walking. phone. not in the kitchen. on my bed. sitting to rest. phone call, right. who am i calling? oh yeah. i need the phone number... no, it's in the giant stack of mail and bills and... pile is too big, too much there. too much, too big. i close my eyes. maybe later... |
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